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Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Speaking from the Heart

Hi everyone, things have gotten really slow in my blog world and that's because things in my real world have gotten hectic. I try to keep this blog light and airy full of fashion and fun. So when fashion is actually the last thing on my mind, it's hard to find the energy to post. I'm going through some personal things, that I honestly never imagined I'd be dealing with in my life. I'm thankful to have a loving family, friends and above all the most amazing man I have ever had the privilege to know by my side. But sometimes even all the love and support, can't make you feel better. When life doesn't go how you thought it would, you begin to doubt and question every decision and choice you've made in the past. I try to live without regret, but at times like this how do I not just question everything?
I'm not giving up on what I want in life, it's not my style. But right now I feel like I am stuck, can't move forward until I feel like me again. I can't fight for what I want again, until I feel like there is fight in me to keep fighting.
I feel broken, I feel lost and I feel like I'm stuck in a bad dream. I know it's not fair to those who love me to watch me fall apart, but right now I don't feel like I have control of it. Things WILL get better, I believe that. I WILL feel better, I know that. But today, I'm just trying to pick up the pieces, put one foot in front of the other and keep moving forward.



  1. You can do it!! Things WILL get better - we've all been there, and you will come out much stronger and happier than you could imagine. Best of luck!

  2. feel better and i know what you mean but push forward! if you keep dwelling on the negative it will only pile up more weight on your shoulders, i love your honesty i try to keep my blog all light & fun but we shy away from the fact that we're human. hope your situation gets better & have a fabulous day :)

  3. I love you so much and am here for you at any hour of any day or night! Things WILL get better! You are a trooper and when you are good and ready, you will move forward. Take some time to yourself to figure everything out, we will all be here for you whenever you need us.
    xoxoxo I love you bestie!

  4. aw good luck A! Hope things work out for the best ... and soon. I've been in a similar rut lately and it's definitely been tough to update when it's the last thing on your mind.

    My boyfriend had some wise words for me yesterday that maybe can help you out a bit too?

    He told me to focus on the things that I can control because everything else will happen regardless of what I do. Don't stress about outside factors can it can only make things worse ... never better.

    Good luck girl! Stay Strong!

  5. Hi sweetie! I know how you feel, and I understand your feelings completely. Stay strong and positive which I am sure you are both. I am not going to lie, somedays will be better than others but you will get through it. I am sure you have a strong support system that will get you through this dark storm.

    A, I have been there and I know it's not easy. Thank you for your honesty, and I know things WILL be better for you.

    As always I'm loving your blog. Unfortunately, these days I haven't been able to keep up with much except school...sooo just know that you have my support even tho I don't give my comments.

    Lots of hugs!!